WHEN TO LET GO AND WHEN TO FIGHT11:00 PM
When I was younger, I think that was enough just to like someone, that was really okay to jump right into relationship. I wasn't matured enough, I admit it. I used to search for love and fell instantly for a certain man because of his words and without thinking rationally like "is this right? is he truly the love of my life?". I never thought about the possibility of getting hurt deeply because I didn't think carefully when I started to build a relationship with someone. I had my heart torn to pieces couple of times because I was too fool (I always wished that someone would have explained me how it feels before that happened to me. Funny, right?)
Now, I think about making rational decision that an adult would make, whether or not that end will make things difficult to me or him. I even think about the end before I start it. I realized that love actually has terms and conditions attached to it.
Mom ever said that love shouldn't change the way you are, love just needs tolerations and faithful between two parties. To love and to have that love grows well is one of the important things that both parties should do together because love need both logics and emotions to be balanced. Love is like a fight to keep it going especially when you are in the toughest times but you keep wanting to hold each other hands and knowing this relationship is worth fighting for (because sometimes love meant having the courage to let go when you know that it’s not good for you). I can summarize that love has never been easy.
And I promise to myself that I won't be easily jumping into conclusions again, I should be ready for heart aches but I would fight for the right one who makes me laugh at my hardest time and be at my happiest moments. I have to look at a man's actions rather than his words. And I've learned to love myself before having the capacity to love someone else, knowing that life is always worth living with or without him and I'd be brave to know when to let go and when to fight for love.